I had a great day on Saturday. My adulting game was on point, and for the first time in forever, I felt like I had it together.
I went to bed feeling great. I even woke up on Sunday, and I was still motivated. I got most of my to-do list done, and then I hit the to-do list item that has been haunting me.
You see, I have a terrible memory. A memory that I can’t even blame on the Fibro because it has always been this way. So, for my entire life, I have taken pictures. I have boxes and boxes of pictures that I need to get rid of.
I really want to minimize my life, and part of that is getting rid of all of the boxes of photos. I have been trying to do it for years and three different moves. But every time I start, I get caught up and get all emotional. Partly because I look at the pics and can’t remember the names or places, and partly because I just know that once they are digitized, I probably won’t ever see them again. I am realizing that they have become a safety blanket for me that I just can’t get rid of.
So, tonight I once again had it on my list to go through a small pile of photos, and that sent me into a wave of depression and sadness.
To bring us back to the roller coaster, my ride at the top of the hill was over. Down I went to the bottom of the hill. And now, I am at the bottom trying to figure out how to climb back up.
I love riding roller coasters, but I really wish that my life didn’t always have to be on one. I just want to coast on a lazy river for a while. Even for just a few days.
I feel like it is going to take some time to get back up the hill. I would love any suggestions on how to tackle getting rid of a safety blanket or getting past a tough to do item.
Thanks for listening.