I am happy today.
I always get this fantastic feeling of happiness and accomplishment when I can see the fruits of my labor in a big project.
If you don’t follow me on Instagram, you won’t have seen the progression of my backyard renovation. You should check it out here.
This is why I am over the moon happy today. While it isn’t completely finished, there is enough completed, that when I look at it, I am just happy. I want to spend time out there.
I am also feeling very proud that I did it all by myself. I had some people help me load things at stores, but otherwise, I moved every rock, laid every paver, and planted every plant. I knew I could do it in my old life, but I was worried that I wouldn’t be able to do it now that I am older and have that chronic pain.
But I did it!
And I feel great about it. I am sore in every pore of my body, and I might have bruises on my knees for weeks, but I am not dead, and I am still moving.
I even cleaned up all my messes yesterday to finish things off and having a beautiful clean yard, and a nice clean house just makes me a happy girl.
So, I am happy today.
I am riding the high on the roller coaster that is my emotional life, and it is just what I needed after the anxiety and lows that I have been feeling over the past couple of weeks. I was low last week. I almost quit my dream job because of the low, but I remembered that depression lies and things would get better.
And I don’t know if it was the heavy physical labor that got me out of this slump, but I am going to think that it helped. I am hoping that it might actually inspire me to get back to the gym.
And the finished product also reminded me how much I miss having a dog and how much I want to get another one. The yard was one of those things that I couldn’t see having a dog in before because it was filled with trip hazards and hidden dangers like nails that could hurt paws. But now, I feel like I would feel safe letting a dog out there and knowing that they really couldn’t hurt themselves. I think that is the part that makes me the happiest. I still have a road to travel before the dog enters my life, but I really do feel that I can do this sooner than later.
So, I reminded myself of a couple of things this past couple of weeks. I can come out of a slump and be happy on the other side. Physical labor and work won’t kill me. And I still get a little happiness high from finishing something.
I might be rambling this week, and I don’t know where you are in your journey, but I hope that this reminds you to have hope. I feel like some days, this is all that gets me through. 🙂