“Hair is Everything” – Phoebe Waller-Bridge in Fleabag
I got my hair cut yesterday.
Normally this would not be news, but for me, my hair is one of those things that I have always disliked.
I fight with it. It drives me crazy. I can never make up my mind about what I want.
In the last 8 years, I have had 6 different hairstyles.
I only liked 2 of them at the most.
And this week, I almost cut it all off. Shaved it so I wouldn’t have to deal with it anymore. I was that annoyed.
And then I decided that I was going to look back at the last 8 years and find the style that I seemed to like the most. See if maybe it might be time to go back to that style. I went through all the pics on my phone and found all the styles.
And a funny thing happened. I went back to each of those times in my life, and I remembered what I was doing and how I was feeling and how long I kept a style. It was a wonderful trip down memory lane. It brought me back to the style I liked the most. Turns out, that style was the one I got right after my divorce. I cut off about 6 inches of hair and finally had a real wash and go style that I kept for almost 4 years. My feeling at that time, I was free.
My stylist yesterday told me that the hair you like the most is from when you were happiest in your life.
So, I went mostly back to that style. (I did not have the courage to add bangs back in yet. We will see if those come back.)
And this morning, it feels like me. My quirky, curly self is back.
I feel like it is valuable to try new things. The beauty of hair is that it keeps growing, it never stops. So, I keep growing too. Try something new, and when it works, keep it. Doesn’t work, learn and move on. This is the process of discovery.
I am amazed that my year of discovery is almost over. November is here, Christmas is coming, and it all feels like it is moving too fast. But, I have been discovering myself all year, and I am loving who I am becoming. I just want to keep savoring all that is in my life.
I hope you are also loving your life these days, and if you are not, remember, life is worth living even if it doesn’t seem like it all the time. Just keep going. I promise it gets better. 🙂