I feel good today.
I don’t hurt.
Life with a chronic illness can be surprising some times. In a good way.
Yesterday, I had a Saturday all to myself. I haven’t had that in a while, and I planned a big day of getting things done around the house. Usually, when I do this, I will make this big to-do list and only get about halfway through it before I am worn out, and I have to stop and rest. But I got it all done yesterday. I even had time to watch a movie, which rarely happens in my world. Everything in the day just worked out, and the timing was perfect. And I was never exhausted or in pain. I even stayed up late to watch a football game.
Today, I woke up, and I feel good.
I am cautiously optimistic and trying to enjoy this feeling. I don’t really want it to end, but the cynic in me is waiting for that proverbial “other shoe” to drop and my body to come crashing down.
This feeling good thing is a new place for me. I am trying just to enjoy it while it happens. Because I don’t know when my illness will resurface. I am hoping that it isn’t for a while.
I don’t know what has brought along this good feeling. I know I have prioritized my sleep more, so maybe that is helping. I am really challenged in a good way at work, and perhaps that is helping. I am excited about the future with the holidays coming and a trip to visit people in January, so maybe that is helping. Maybe it is all of those things.
So, I am just trying to enjoy it. I am trying to just live in the moment.
And that is all I have today. Living in the moment and feeling good for now. I hope you all can have a little good feeling this week too!