Sometimes, I wish I had a different body.
Today is one of those days.
I am trying to stay positive, and I want to be mostly positive on this blog, but today, that is hard for me.
You see, I tried to be a “normal” person this week. (PS. I do this every year. You would think I would know better by now)
I did a volunteer gig, went to a Christmas party, and even did a bunch of errands. All on nights after work this week. Yesterday, I worked on making Christmas presents for people. All of this is way out of the norm for me. I usually come home after work, relax, and go to bed early. But I didn’t do that this week. I want to stay involved because the Holidays = a great time to see one another.
And today, I am likely going to have to stay in bed most of the day. Every muscle in my body hurts. My head is pounding. And this is when the reality of having a chronic illness hits me in the face.
I don’t get to be normal. Because my body can’t handle it. It will flare up and make me stop, even if I don’t want to.
This is why I am having trouble being positive today. I really wanted to do a bunch of things today, but it looks like I might just be watching TV and reading. (Which isn’t a horrible thing.)
This week, I will have to be more careful with my time. Make sure I get to sleep earlier. Skip the other Christmas party I am invited to and try to make it through the week without putting myself in this position again next week. And remember that “normal” isn’t all it is cracked up to be.