Do you like being alone?
I love spending my weekends at home by myself.
I love the solitude and silence.
I am an introvert. Most people who know me from work or school or even events that I go to would completely disagree. I generally am good at playing an extrovert in public. I can be social, and I can work a room at any networking event. My job requires that I talk to lots of people all day. Those people only see the extroverted me that is a complete act.
Because at the end of the day, I come home and completely collapse into a ball that never wants to leave the house again. I am exhausted from all the extroverted things. They just drain me completely. And even though they do that to me, I love my job, and I can’t imagine doing anything else.
So, I like to have my weekends all to myself, except if I get the opportunity to see any of my few really close friends. Then I go to spend time with them. I am still usually exhausted at the end, but it is happy exhaustion because there is so much love and goodness packed into those times.
I have spent the last three weekends not leaving my house on Saturday or Sunday. It has been blissful.
Except when I look at social media.
I feel out of place when I see all the people who are going hiking or skiing or to events or to dinner. I live in Colorado, so it is kind of expected that you are an outdoors person and I work with some extreme outdoors people. I am not an outdoors person. I love nature but prefer just to watch it from a window.
Last weekend, I had to take a real hard look at me and why I was feeling bad, because why should I feel bad for being me.
Truth is, we all want to fit in. And I don’t feel like I fit in anywhere except with my tiny circle of friends or at home.
That is the only time that I ever feel like I can be completely me.
I decided over the last week that from now on I am going to try to celebrate the fact that I am an introvert. That I love to be at home. That I love the quiet. That I would much rather sit and write this than go hiking or even go outside.
Because I realized that the world needs introverts too. We are valuable people. Even if we don’t go out and have Instagram awesome lives. I might not be able to take a picture of how awesome my weekend was for me, but it was awesome for me. Books were read, fireplaces were enjoyed, and I was happy.
Today, I am going to do some sewing for someone special. And I won’t leave my house all day!
I hope you have the most perfect day for you. And if you too are an introvert, I hope you get lots of time to yourself today. 🙂