It finally happened this week.
The feeling that this blog is too much for me to handle.
My brain telling me that I am spending too much time and money on this little endeavor of mine.
I started this blog because I thought it might help me find a community.
I thought it might connect me better to people.
I thought it would be a good way for me to stop holding things inside and just get everything out in the open.
But I am beginning to think that I am not strong enough as a person to handle what comes with putting my truth out there.
Because this morning I wanted to quit.
Partly because I am tired and feeling overwhelmed with change, and I want some time to myself.
Partly because I got feedback this week that I have offended some people with what I have written.
I don’t know if I want to quit for good. I have lots of ideas to write about. This week, empathy came up, and so did dealing with change. Both topics that I struggle with. I even thought I might write about how much I love college football because I went to a game yesterday and it was so much fun.
But I woke up this morning and just needed a break. Thinking that the 2-3 hours I spend putting this together each week might be time better spent on something else. Thinking that maybe I should stop using this writing as therapy and just go back to therapy.
I really don’t know.
So, I think I am taking a break. I might decide to start right back up next week because I might get inspired. Or I might take a few weeks off and see if I can use that time better for different endeavors. I don’t know. I just know that today, I am feeling like I might be done.
Thanks to my loyal readers for staying with me. It has been a little over two years that this blog has been in existence and a year since I began the weekly writings. I have loved your comments. Your support has been the thing that kept me going. 🙂